Conditioned Paranoia

Here’s the thing, do you ever just feel like something great is happening but it’s going to get taken away from you? Like, you’re not good enough to have it or that it’s too good for you?

Honestly, that’s something I struggle with a lot. Like I’m constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop.

“When you get the top of the mountain, stop worrying about falling, just take a look around.”

I saw that quote on Pinterest the other day and it’s been stuck in my head since then. Recently, tons of amazing things have been happening to me, in like every area of life, and it’s scary. I realized this yesterday; I’m terrified that the good stuff is going to get ripped out from under me, like it always seems too. That is not a good way to live life.

I feel like many of us are conditioned to think that we need to be prepared for the worst because we’re used to the worst happening to us, but in doing that I think we forget to hope for the best. We just live in a constant state of fear and paranoia. Even as I’m writing this, I have to tell those feeling to get the heck away from me.

It’s starting to seem as if all of my posts feed off of past thoughts, I recently posted about trust and trust is huge when it comes to dealing with fear. We need to trust that God is not out to get us and that he wants the very best for us, in every situation.

Psalm 91:1-16 (ESV)

“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his pinions, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness is a shield and buckler. You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day.”

We just begin to believe that because bad things happen God is somehow absent or that he doesn’t care, but that is far from the contrary. He loves us so much that he lets us go through the less than perfect moments so we can truly appreciate the amazing.

I love Psalm 91 because it covers every type of nuisance that could bother us, from getting the wrong food at a restaurant all the way to having your entire life demolished. Basically, fear is pointless and stupid.

Ohhhhh, you know what its like, it’s like the movie Mean Girls. They spend the whole movie trying to destroy each other and it gets pretty awful when Regina George gets hit by a bus, but at the end Caty, Regina, Gretchen, Karen, Damian, Janis, and Aaron are all so happy because they know how awful it was that they truly appreciated when nobody was being catty and sassy and monumentally destructive.

If you’ve never seen Mean Girls, you should watch it so you know what I’m talking about and because it’s pretty freaking funny. But any who…

In our state of what I’ll call “conditioned paranoia,” we almost get comfortable thinking we shouldn’t have anything good happen, and we get comfortable with the fact that everything will always, for the lack of a better term, suck.

Luke 12:32 (MSG)

“What I’m trying to do here is get you to relax, not be so preoccupied with getting so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep yourself in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Don’t be afraid of missing out. You’re my dearest friends! The Father wants to give you the very kingdom itself.”

Right there it says that God wants to give us the kingdom, he loves us so much that he wants to give us everything he has, and we know that, we just forget it.

Matthew 7:11 (NLT)

“So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him.”

Think for a second about the best earthly possession gift that has ever been given to you? Who gave it to you, your mom, best friend, dad, co-worker, a stranger? So, if some rando can give you something that you remember to this day, don’t you think that the one who created you and gives you life every morning would want to give you the best of everything? He does!

We need to accept the fact that good things will happen and they will stick. We need to stop and smell the roses. We need to appreciate the beauty in our blessings; instead of saying thank you for fear that they could be taken away, say thank you knowing that God wants you to have the very best!

Just remember that if this good thing gets removed that just means that it wasn’t the very best, because if it’s not good its not final; God’s final word is always good.

Okiedokie peeps, I’m done now! I’m not sure if this was just for me or if it was for someone else, but I hope you feel so incredibly loved and valued. You are truly one of a kind and a perfect addition to the face of this planet. I hope you have an amazing weekend!


Bridgy Colleen


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