Hi, welcome to Always August where I, the writer, have absolutely no idea whats going on in my life anymore. But really, I have no idea whats going on anymore. You know when you just go through lulls in your life where you’re just not 100% sure about what you’re supposed to be doing anymore. Thats where Im at right now. Im in this weird transitional phase and because of that I let my mind run away with me. I can’t stop focusing on the what ifs. The thing that sucks about that is, even if I try to turn off my mind to focus on what I need to actually do, my thought process gets more jumbled and confusing.
It sucks having so many people around you who seem to know exactly what they want and know what they’re supposed to do, because they seem so sure. So positive about the unknown, because at least they have an idea.
One thing that I’ve started to realize about those people though, is that they don’t really have an idea either, they are just better at taking the leap of faith it takes to get them to where they may want to be. The thing is, my problem isn’t even the fact that I have no clue what to do, my problem is that I’m afraid to make the wrong choice. Theres one thing that always pops up into my head when I start thinking that; “if you’re seeking God he will guide you to where you need to go even if you can’t hear him saying it to you.”
My problem is that I don’t want to screw up so I give minimal effort to be able to accomplish what I know I can already do on my own. Know what totally sucks about that though, were not supposed to do this, our lives, alone. We’re supposed to lean on God and other people to accomplish what we can’t do in our own strength. Sometimes, we just get too proud to ask for help or admit that we need it when someone offers it.
In Galatians 6:2 ESV “Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.” and then in Psalm 121:2 ESV “My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.” So see, right there in the bible, the message from The Lord, his love letter to us, it says that we should be asking for some freaking help.
Easier said then done though, right? Im a proud person; its hard for me to ask for help. I don’t like letting people in, but apparently, according to Jesus we need to let peeps in to throw us a rope every once in a while. Once we have that rope of help, its so much easier to take that leap of faith thats required for us to move on to our destiny and calling.
Well, thats what Im trying to learn right now, so far its not going to well but thats what growing is all about. Making your self learn something hard. Love you guys, Im really gonna try to get back on top of actually writing about my life again. haha. Have a fantastic weekend, you’re all SPECTACULAR.